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Kamis, 05 Juni 2014

Rabu, 04 Juni 2014

Tanpa Judul

Assalammualaikum wr wb...

Sory buat sobat gw sebelumnya karna gua udah numpang nulis di blognya dia. . . .

Sory juga kalo tulisan ini ngawur dan ga ada judulnya,karna gw cuma mau iseng iseng ajah nulis,biasanya sih gua ga pernah nuwangin pikiran gua di tulisan, tapi yaa coba deh buat sesekali gua nulis siapa tau bisa jadi penulis hebat^^.

Oke langsung ajah, beberapa bulan yang lalu gua baru ajah kehilangan orang yang udah nemenin gua selama lima tahun terakhir. Awalnya gua ga nyangka bakalan jadi seperti ini jalan hidup gua sama dia, udah banyak impian, harapan, dan keinginan yang udah kita rencanain, tapi gua sama dia harus dipisahin, yaaa mau gimana lagi mungkin ini udah jalan hidup gua. Jujur sih, sampe sekarang gua belum bisa lupain dia, gua masih suka ngebayangin kejadian kejadian dulu yang pernah gua jalanin sama dia, yah misalnya ajah kaya dulu gua sering banget nganterin dia beli jajanan kesukaannya dia di PUP (Pondok Ungu Permai) daerah yang lumayan besar dengan jalan berlubang dimana mana ^^.  Kalo gua ke PUP pasti gua berusaha buat lewatin tempat tempat jajanan yang sering dia kunjungin. Bahkan sampe sekarang kalo gua lagi ada di rumah, gua suka nyempetin buat jalan jalan lewatin depan rumahnya dan berharap ada dia keluar dengan senyum manisnya (mustahil -_-). Sampe pernah sekali saking gua ngarepnya, saat lewatin rumahnya dia dan ngebayangin kenangan kenangan di rumahnya, gua hampir ajah nyungsep ke selokan, untung ajah masih hampir.
Rumah tingkat berwarna merah jambu dengan pohon mangga di depan rumah itu banyak kenangan yang gua lewatin sama dia. Di rumah itu pertama kalinya gua bisa ngejemput dia tanpa harus diem diem kalo mau bawa dia kabur. Terus juga dulu sebelum UN hampir setiap hari gua ke rumah itu, belajar bareng sama dia buat nyiapin UN dan SBMPTN, sampe terkadang gua bela belain cabut dari lesan gua Cuma buat belajar dan ketemu sama dia, yaa walaupun lebih banyak ngobrolnya sih bukan belajarnya hi..hi...hi.... tapi Alhamdulillah gua seneng bisa ngebantu dia buat lulus UN dan masuk ke PTN yang dia mau. Masih banyak kenangan kenangan yang gua laluin sama dia yang ga bisa gua ceritain di tulisan ini, maklum gua ga suka nulis.... hehe
Tapi, semua itu hanya kenangan, saat beberapa hari yang lalu gua tau dia udah punya pasangan lagi. Awalnya gua ga percaya, tapi saat gua lihat FB dan gua lihat foto dia yang lagi di rangkul sama pasangannya dengan wajah yang ceria. Di saat itulah gua sadar, kalo gua harus berhenti berharap, karna sudah ada orang lain yang bisa ngebahagiain dia di sana. Engga sepantasnya gua masih berharap lebih dari dia yang sudah jadi milik orang lain. Tapi yaudah deh jangan di ungkit ungkit lagi, kasian dia dengan pasangannya yang sekarang, takut terganggu. Yah semoga pasangan yang dia pilih itu bener bener pasangan yang tepat buat dia. Oh iyah mungkin kalo dia lihat tulisan gua ini, gua cuma mau kasih pesan
TERIMA KASIH ku ucapkapkan dari lubuk hatiku yang paling dalam,,
walaupun semua sudah berlalu, buatku itu semua adalah KENANGAN yang tak bisa aku lupakan sampai kapanpun.

Terima kasih atas kesetianmu menemaniku selama ini..
Terimakasih atas segala yang kau berikan dan kau lakukan untuk membahagiakanku.

Hati ini akan tersenyum saat berdua bersamamu
Dan hati ini akan termenung saat menanti kabar darimu..

Luka ini memang membuat hati ini sakit
Jujur aku bersedih karena kau sudah memilih tuk tinggalkanku
Dan pergi dengannya
Namun aku akan lebih dewasa jika bisa melewati semua ini..

Meskipun engkau telah pergi dan mungkin tak akan kembali
Aku akan tetap disini
Aku masih rindu padamu dan masih sayang padamu
Meski kini cintamu bukanlah aku

Pesan Terakhir

Jangan pernah masuk ataupun menyentuh kehidupan seseorang jika itu hanya akan menghancurkan perasaannya saja...

Byee ...
I promise, I will be right here waiting for you, I promise......
 


Jumat, 09 Mei 2014

Cerita ku

Pagi hari yang cerah di hari jumat,gw bangun tidur jam 8 pagi,gtw gw mw ngapain hehehehe
beberapa saat kemudian gw berfikir bermain game di laptop,dan gw main game sampai sekitar jam 10 lah,terus gw bergegas mandi dan berangkat ke tempat les,mata pelajaran fisika,waktu minggu kemarin gurunya bilang bahwa jumat ini dia ga masuk dan ga ada les hari ini (libur),tapi gw masih aja berangkat macem orang pinter,biar di kata rajin, hehehe
dan sampai di tempat les ternyata gurunya dateng untuk mengajar,sial ne dosen bikin PHP gw aj,jadi belajar kan gw di kampus padahal males banget gw,pada saat itu gw belajar dari jam 1 sampai jam 3 sore,setelah keluar kelas ya biasalah gw nongkrong bareng anak-anak temen gw,mereka rombongan orang kaya gitulah kcuali gw orang yang biasa aja menurut gw,gw ngumpul bareng sambil nunggu jam futsal sampai jam 4,karena gw udah ada rencana futsal sama anak-anak,main futsanya cuma satu jam aja si,tapi lumayan buat olahraga buat bikin badan cape,nah disaat selesai futsal itu ada konflik diantara temen gw,temen gw yang namanya ya... sebut ajlah namanya joni,dia ngajak gw nongkrong di warung nasi kucing tempat biasa kita ngumpul dan dia cuma ngajak ngumpul berdua aja sama gw,katanya mw ngomong masalah penting si,tapi ya gw rada takut jg gw di apa apain sama dia,takut di grepe-grepe kaya homo gitu hahaha
tapi dia ternyata ga begitu,dia curhat sama gw tentang masalah dia sama  adam (nama samaran).dia cerita bahwa si adam tu cerita atau ngomongin dia dari belakang,bahwa si joni kalaw udah gabung sama temen gamersnya udah lupa sama temen yang di ajaknya (adam).
Si joni ga terimalh,dia cerita bahwa malah si adam lah yang ga mw gabung dan main sama si joni dan temen gamersnya,padahal si joni udah ngajak dan sedikit maksa biar dia gabung sama temen-temennya dia,si adam malah mau jalan-jalan dulu mmuterin tu tempat,si joni nawarin "gw ikut ya?" si adam nolak,si joni berfikiran mungkin si adam mau sendiri kali,tapi udah lama malah ga balik-balik si adamnya,joni takut dia tersesat atau ilang,si joni sms si adam ga di bales-bales,joni mau tlp ga ada pulsa,si joni nyariinlah si adam,ternyata si adam,ketemulah si adam di warung makan,makanlah dia berdua,selesai makan temennya joni yang anak gamers itu nyamperin,pas anak gamers itu nyamperin si adam pergi dengan alasan mw cari angin dulu,tapi udah lama cari angin ko ga balik balik,mungkin kekurangan angin kali ya hehehe,joni nyariin lagi beli pulsalah akhirnya si joni buat nelpon si adam,dan pas di telpon si adam katanya udah pulang dia duluan si joni ngomong "ko ga bilang-bilang gw si kalaw mau pulang? ywdh tungguin gw,gw jg mw pulang ne" si adam ngomong "yah gw udah mw sampe rumah ne" si joni pun diam dan menutup tlpnya,besoknya si adam bilang ke orang-orang "kalaw si joni udah sama temen gamers udah lupa sama temen sebelumnya,gw aj di cuekin kata adam" gw si ga tw yang bener yang mana tapi misalkan kalaw si adam bener,jangan di omonglh kejalekan orang, toh klw ga di omong tar juga tau sendiri gimana si joni,dan kalaw misalkan si joni yang bener ya jangan jelekin orang dan ngomong di belakang. begitulah cerita hari ini belum ada penyelesaiannya sori ya yang udah ngebaca dan yang karakternya sama seperti di atas :) penulis mengucapkan terimakasih. :)

Kamis, 08 Agustus 2013

Broken heart (Patah Hati)



"
The Journey..


This path,
Wasn't meant to be touched... The bitterness placed its hands upon it..
And this place we left behind contains a recollection of the deep explorations and admirations,
Never once I would of thought I'd have...
I still feel the heat of the burning candle between you and I..
Do you still feel it? That heat.. I call sweet sorrow..


The burning flame..
I truly wish to never be blown away,
A soothing touch will put away the misery..
Sorrow may be eternal,
Especially if true feelings aren't exposed...


by MoonViolet




If I, Should I?


If I climb starways to heaven, will I miss out the stars?
If I just lay right here, who's to stop the cars?
If I meet with your skin, who will see my scars?
Is this really my cage, when I can see no bars?


Should I take the first step, or should I sit and wait?
Should I turn towards, or quicken up my gait?
Should I question why, or accept it as my fate?
Is the time now right, or is it far too late?


by williambrown




Old Fashion, still


You broke your watch and you went still,
and the sidewalks weren't very gentle.
Stepped a little over ten pills
think that you might be going mental.
'Cause you think you are running away now
thinking you got away now
from those memories, in all of those nights
That's when things were all electric,
remembering why you weren't dead
And that's when it all whirled apart.


Never really ever had much,
Always wrote down in pencil,
But never ever erased still
'Cause you always had things memorized
from the day you were dreaming of it all
From last fall to the next winter,
Never really had anyone to call


Remember when things were read 'til?
Always thought you had some common nice class
when times were all getting feverish so fast
you thought they were all sentimental
but as the murks of all men steels,
Never notice how florescent they really were
Always thinking you never needed a cure.
But you never really bit, no,
Perhaps things would deal well


In your dreams, several of them remained
Never had you in featured at all
And did you know? Oh no.


Could you ever walk without heels?
Always grasping to the curb's vines
falling besides the Grey's mind
maybe you should not have used a pencil,
knowing that it could be fatal.
Lots in common with your night dress
always kept on top of paper watches
left alone with little tuxedos
Tearing up as some gentlemen left you.
Holding up this trivial crisis as you had long ago.


In your dreams, how many of those He-Man
ever held you in their free hands?
And didn't you wish, you could be one.
One of those, those who never let go.


by Glassless




The Death of Hope


I wish I never met you
I wish I never kissed you
And told you that I missed you.


I wish I didn’t write stupid poems
To try and convince you to be with me
I wish I wouldn’t stop by your house just because I could.


What are we doing here
You fuck with boys’ minds
But why do you keep me around?


I wanted you
Now, I can’t even be in the same room with you
Just go.


Don’t talk to me
Don’t visit me
Just disappear


Leave my heart
Leave my soul
And everything about me as a whole.


Get me another drink
So I can wash your memory out of my veins
Kill some cells to leave this hell
It’s the only thing that helps.


I wish every star would explode and make me go deaf
And I wish the moon’s light would soon fade to black
So that I cannot see or hear
Maybe then I’ll forget the sound of your heartbeat under the night sky.


I wish I wasn’t so stupid
To stick around while you cried over some asshole who didn’t want you
I wish I didn’t care so fucking much about your problems.


I wish I never told you how much I loved you
And all those times I spent comforting you...
Were just never quite enough.


Why you!
This was never supposed to be
Just stop caring and leave.


We go in circles anyway
Progress is an illusion for what resembles hope
I wish I could hurt you.
Scar you.
Quit you.
Leave you.


You never loved me…
Only my presence to help you forget your pain
Used me up, and now I have no pity left for you.


If you loved me, then you should have caught me when I fell for you
…For a whole year
Now my love for you is lying dead at the bottom of a dark trench.


I wish we never took so many pictures
Ones that I never should have taken
What were we thinking?


It took the death of hope to let you go
And now I finally know…


Stay cold and alone in your bed
Without the warmth of the blue jacket
Or the sweet aroma of my cologne


I hope you hurt just as much as I do
I hope your guilt eats you alive
And you grasp what was lost


I hope when your eyes visit the moon
You realize the distance back to your heart
And remember how far I loved you.


I wish I could forget you
And everything we ever had
Don’t you get it?


I don’t care about you.
I don’t care about your needs.
I don’t care about your feelings.
But I do.


Maybe one day our hearts will bring us back home
Right here to the place where we’d meet
Where hope and dreams walk hand in hand
Where reality meets actuality
Where love is the only thing that matters.
And where the death of hope becomes the birth of new possibilities.


by Craig123




Tears Behind My Eyes


When you look into my eyes they may seem to be empty,
My eyes are full of tears, although you don't see any.


So many times my heart has been filled with pain,
And deep behind my eyes are pockets of tears that are ready to fall like rain.


I know at times I may appear to be tough,
but sometimes to bear the pain and heartache can be too much.


Sometimes I try and hide the tears that I cried just last night,
Tears that soaked my pillow wet long past mornings first light.


I know how it feels to be pushed away by someone you love,
I'm not afraid to admit my tears because I know that there's a far greater love, one that comes from above.


Happiness too will be mine, so until then I'll keep my my head up and eyes towards the skies,
And never allowing anyone to see the tears hidden behind my eyes.


by a1thapo1




No More.


Plagued by heart break
Lost in memories of the light
These days are so dark
Black, I live only to fight,


Against Haunting thoughts
horrific dreams,
Where I die every time.
They say that your dreams outline what you want.


So, I want to suffer
To die alone and afraid.
It's true after what happened between us
I don't feel I deserve to live


But, I was never one to have the last say
That was your job
To make sure every thing was right
every thing was perfect


As perfect as you were
But now that my half doesn't match your's
Where does that leave me
Who is going to want some one that is perfect for you.


by CrimsonRain




Black Storm


I know, it hurts
the storm has come and gone
leaving you and I
broken in ruins but this cant be where i die


I needed someone that protected me from my self
and you never could
and so i move on from this place
with a heavy heart all alone


The memories held me down for so long
because i couldn't just let go of you
and it still hurts
but i know now what i must do to survive this place


There is nothing left
and i desperately rebuild my life
from the broken pieces
you left of my heart on the floor


Time is no friend as he burns the wound shut
and the tears they flow like blood from a cut
But i need to be strong with one foot after another
i just have to move on


Because you’ve left me to rot all alone.


by CrimsonRain




I Can't Stop Crying Today


I can't stop crying today
My world walked out the door
With her she took my heart
For I will love no more


The hours passed like seconds
When our two hearts were one
The seconds passed like hours
After she said that she was done


She was going to love me forever
At least that is what she said
Her heart belonged to someone else
That is what her letter read


I no longer live in color
My world is black and white
I always wonder what she is doing
As I lie awake at night


I hope tomorrow is better
This is what I pray
But right now my heart is broken
I can't stop crying today


by Brandon




The Unsent Poem


Favorite song plays in the background
Every lyric reminding me of you
Conversations running through my head
So many things that I wish you knew


Everytime that you brought me happiness
I just never quite knew what to say
I was afraid to say the wrong thing
Thinking it would make you go away


Every night I did the same old thing
I wrote poem after poem on my bed
I love you written a hundred ways
Because of fear, they were never said


The stack of poems stands tall
Not one ever making it to you
You simply walked away from me
And a love that you never knew


If only I would have taken a chance
I know that you would still be here
At night I still write you many poems
Only now the ink is mixed with tears


by Brandon




Crying In A Corner.


Sitting here starring at a wall,
Waiting for the day that you call,
I want to talk to you,
Let alone be with you,
Sitting here in a corner can't you see,
All these tears aren't good for me


I would give up everything,
All of my dreams and my friends,
I would just enjoy being around you,
Not just for love,
I may love you,
And I know it isn't in return,
Now I'm crying here,
My heart starts to burn.


Roaring in flames,
Holes and knots in my heart,
Talking about broken hearts are menial,
For mine is a ball of strings.


These lies,
Cripple my heart,
These lies,
Stop me from feeling,
These lies,
Completely break me.


I was told to be happy,
I cannot with myself,
All alone,
My heart is turning to stone,
The marrow in my bones settle,
All of it is going down through the phone,
What the fuck is up with this world,
My world...


My world of death,
All my friends and loved in a room,
They start to fall one by one,
What has my life become?
Holding a guitar tempted to strum,
To the beat my heart refuses to give,
But to turn the rest of me.


My heart and feelings no longer function,
It's all just one conjunction of lies and threats.
I want you and no-one else,
This is when I cling to myself,
But I have nothing to cling to...


"Quinton,
Are you crying?"


by Heartless1903




Ozymandias


Ozymandias
my heroic fool.
You selfishly took my bullet.


You were my lover and my friend,
Ozymandias
If you only knew,
My whole world was you.


with every touch,
my heart raced,
I only wish i could have taken your place.


You loved me,
from the very start.
If only I'd known sooner,
our love could have lasted longer.


Our love was not meant to be,
so we were torn apart
with that shiny bullet,
through your heart.


What wrong did we do in this world,
other than to dare be different.
Our hearts beat like everyone elses,
so why do people think that they couldn't love and feel pain.
We're all the same,
though in our looks we range.


by BloodStained




A Funeral Of The Hearts


Monochromatic stains,
perpetual suffering.


There's no end in sight
to this everlasting blight.


Mountains of ash,
freshly scorched dreams.


Lead weighted,
sinks to dismal.


All doors close,
yet none seem to open.


Sit and wait,
Utterly isolated,


Reminiscing begins,
pleasant pictures of the past.


Things seemed so eternal,
magic frozen in time.


Foreshadowing life,
Mind looks toward the future


Hollow, in desolate sorrow,
grim future in sight.


Forlorn souls
become untwined


Love lost...
A funeral of the hearts


by HallowReveries




 My Love for you will never die


I`m thinking about what you said
And it makes me wish that I were dead
You only loved me when you were mine
But I`ll love you till the end of time
If you fall for someone else
It will make my life a living hell
My love for you will never die
Even if you aren't mine
And when you fall for me again
I`ll be hanging from a rope loving you while I`m dead.


by BleedingXangel




Prison


Cast my thoughts across the land
Watch me ebb slowly from the sand
Wring me dry, hang me up
Isn't my love big enough?


Sleep with tears upon your cheeks
Brush me from the torrid weeks
That I left you, all alone
Bar me from your empty home


Fling a fishing net off-shore
Pull me in, shut the door
Satisfy your salty hands
Wrap me up in iron bands


Paint pictures of a scarlet love
Watch the world from high above
Spinning in your holy spire
Leave me in my dirty mire


Leonard Cohen had it right:
Love is a grey fading light
Even with all my hateful might
I'll never escape your bright night


by xgreenx




...Remember My Words...


Another day,
Another line.
You choose him,
time after time.


I'll write yet another,
poem about why I'm sad.
I'm so sick of it all,
I miss feeling glad.


I'm tired of writing,
these poems that never put me at ease.
If someone knows the way out of this heartache,
Don't hesistate to tell me, please.


People say "You'll be okay",
And smile right at you.
And your thinking," Yeah right,
you don't know what I'm going through".


Do you know what it's like to feel,
like you'll never feel happy?
Or what it's like to feel like you have to scratch your eyes out,
Just so you couldn't see?.


Even as I write these words,
my breath is filled with sighs.
Because they remind me of you,
so I slowly begin to cry.


It's not fair,
this feeling that's left me bare.
It's not fair that I'm still missing you,
and you don't even care.


You made that obvious,
when you let my world turn dark.
I stare lifelessy at everyone,
On my heart, you left a mark.


My poem is done,
my feelings have been told.
I hope you remember my words,
Til' the day you are grey and old..."

Minggu, 04 Agustus 2013

Gemuruh di Waktu Senja

senja yang telah menempanya hingga musim renta
tak ada yang lebih membakar hati, selain gemuruh di pagi hari
saat pagar dan tembok anyaman bambu rumahnya roboh
bukan lantaran banjir atau tsunami yang tiba-tiba
tapi betapa gemuruh pentungan dan buldozer menggilas
segala yang dimilikinya, airmatanya, peluh harapannya
yang lama ia tanam dalam ruang tempat teduh tubuhnya sehabis kerja
seorang senja yang menarik tangan anaknya dari lelap
dari mimpi tentang kebahagiaan yang tak lagi bisa diwujudkan
karena pentungan dan peraturan telah menenggelamkan
segala yang telah lama ia tanam dalam ruang tempatnya mengaji dan berdoa
gemuruh itu,
tiba-tiba menukik, mencekik ribuan bayi-bayi merah
dan teriakan mereka hanya auman harimau linglung di tengah gurun
gersang juga hati mereka yang memaksanya keluar dari kehidupan
dan hujan tak lagi memberi kesejukan,
kecuali tangisan mereka yang melebihi banjir bandang
dan kita hanya mampu memandang
gemuruh penggilasan berjamaah.

 
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